Over this last month my life has been filled with many fulfilling, creative and expressive experiences.  In some ways, I feel as though I’m rebirthing myself over and over.  The cycle quickly moves from living to death to rebirth…interesting.

In a recent concert (yes, me up on stage singing, with our ‘ole-time music’ band ‘Chicken Biscuit’), I sang, danced, smiled and felt as though I was singing out into the cosmos.  I was on a ‘high’ from the experience for a week.  As my partner said, “this high is better than any drug could ever be”.  I think it’s the closest to addicted I’ve been.  Shining so fully out into the world, with self-love and acceptance and showing the world (the audience there that night) me, was a fulfilling experience.  Singing from my heart, looking into the eyes of my partner and my other friends on stage, knowing that we all shared this time in life together, co-creating, sharing with others…WOW!  Words cannot really express the magnitude of this recent event.  I think I understand how famous performers feel.

Being the analyst that I am of human nature, I can also see how performing for others can become addictive in an unhelpful way, the high that you get, the low’s, the cycle of up’s and down’s, then along comes the other substances to keep you on the high (be it sex, drugs, rock and roll, whatever). There is a great deal to navigate in our world, through the light and darkness.

Another thing I discovered in this experience is how much attention you receive for being out in the world like this, both positive and negative.

With this recent experience, I am feeling more comfortable ‘in the light’ and I’m deciding that this is where I want to be rather than ‘in the dark’. I do not fully know what that means yet, but I am open to receiving whatever comes next for me in my walk of life.

Just as everyone reading this blog, I continue to ‘plug away’ with all of life’s daily interactions, activities and tasks.  As I do this I also look for those opportunities where I can shine my light more out into the world.

My wish for us all in these important days is that we each find our light, accept it, and discover the creativity, love, joy and passion that comes with shining that light.

With love and light,

Susie